Tagged: loss

we played escape from

we played escape from
death star that late summer’s day to 
help to mitigate 

your pain – we could not have 
known that you would not escape
.
20240504:2021
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on the other side 

on the other side 
of a rare solar eclipse,
a new beginning – 

we’ve been here before, all at
once, heavier and lighter
.
20240412:2015
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hello, i love you,

hello, i love you,
where can i rest my sorrow?
is the new refrain

whispered across dimly lit
rooms, beating between heartbeats
.
20240329:0800
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in the courtyard that

in the courtyard that
we could not enter, we stood 
at the gate and looked 

in with a longing only
decades old, searching for home
.
20240323:1533
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of the innumerable

of the innumerable
ways to mourn, i
am negotiating grief
in REM sleep this
morning, consoling
a young colleague
in the art of letting
it out, letting
go, an unsteady
navigation of
space, time, and
reality – on your
birthday, in the nearly
third anniversary of
your passing, we
practice the improbable
parallels of joy and
grief, keeping it
together without
so much
disassembling
.
20240316:0818
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i will always hold

i will always hold
onto you as imperfectly
as you tried to hold

onto me, across time and
unexpected terrain, tongue-tied
.
20240227:2313
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love and loss is near

love and loss is near
inescapable, always
at one point or
another relying
entirely on the death
saving throw
to find one’s
footing, regain
consciousness
.
20240226:2032
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when the city was

when the city was
finally returned to
us after one
too many decades,
everything appeared
smaller and
felt bigger,
weighed
less and left
deeper
impressions, a
kaleidoscopic memory
of memories
.
20240225:1810
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the gentlest way to

the gentlest way to
carry grief around is in
porous membranes, layers

permeable enough to be less
prone to a sudden bursting
.
20240223:1843
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scenes from letting go –

scenes from letting go –
learning to lose people without
a chance to say goodbye
.
20240219:0501
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