Tagged: sick

there is something so

there is something so
unappealing
about riding
around in your
mercedes – the
sickly smell of
the leather interior,
the aimlessness of the
rides, and the sudden
shifts between
baiting, berating,
and boasting
.
20200609:2006
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my six aunts and

my six aunts and
uncle gather around
grandma’s hospital
bed, allowing
the performance of
procedure to overtake the
art of living.
Their hands
are collectively
tied in the pursuit
of individual
blamelessness.

grandma looks
on, one against
six, a tube down
her throat, mindful
of cumulative losses.

as in every
situation, time
flexes its
muscles, taunting us
to hold on or let go
while duty,
devotion, and rivalry
measure us for both
.
20180512:1047
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there are moments when

there are moments when
i feel sick thinking about
it – what to do, what

to say, where to put my feet,
my hands, opened or closed, my heart
.
20180331:1509
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awareness is not

awareness is not
action – this morning,
over the toilet bowl,
recognizing that the
body will eventually
act, revolt,
when administered
enough poison
.
20170213:0742
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waking up in the

waking up in the
middle of the night is
measured by percentage
depletion. my body
knows it’s also running
off of battery
power, and
i’ve been up
so 13% ago – time
to slip back
into bed,
re-finish charging
.
20150414:0853
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the doctor prescribes

the doctor prescribes
time as if the copay were
not an issue – we

pretend we can afford it,
fists full of crumbled minutes
.
20140330:0106
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on antibiotics, i

on antibiotics, i
am a mystery lost in
a galaxy of involuntary
orbits, swinging far
and wide for the
purpose of breaking
down and
healing. don’t
come so close, lest
these drugged molecules
take a swing at you
.
20140328:0836
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a virus like the common

a virus like the common
cold seemingly backs
up one-thousand-four-
hundred-and-forty-two
gigabytes each day –
that’s roughly one
GB per minute – of
course, it takes apart
one’s sense of smell,
squanders what little
drive is left, asks to be
repeatedly shut down
.
20130508:1452
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