Tagged: forget

on day 104

on day 104
or 105, in between
counting and waiting,

there will be seconds when i
will forget that i am waiting


let us launch into

there are moments when

there are moments when
i forget – dicing onions,
eagle pose. there are

moments when i remember –
tadasana, making tea

all day, i keep

all day, i keep
forgetting that you
left us this morning,
and even now, when
i quiet my heart to
take in the news, i
hear old news, when
you called eight years
ago to say that he’s
gone, and do not be
sad, it was so peaceful,
you were reading to him
as he sat in his favorite
chair, and then
you were reading.
tonight, i am not ready
for the details just yet.
there are no brave
messengers. you are
gone, but not yet gone

every third hour, there

because it always

because it always
kills me a little to
say it kills me a little, i
keep the words
back, allow other
words to hold
pep rallies in the
auditorium of
my mouth, take out
banner ads across
the sides of my
tongue, wait for
a clear day, pack
an extra change
of clothes, order a
down south grilled
cheese and tomato
with a sprinkle of
cajun seasoning as
fall back
taking the leap
and asking you to
that i’ve said
anything at all

what you are supposed

what you are supposed
to do, she said, is
move on.
that is exactly
what these moments are
for – to remember
that you are
alive every so
often so that you can
go back to the
of living again