Tagged: denial

when the first order

when the first order
of business
is learning how
to turn people
away, power
presses into the lining
of our stomach,
building up
an appetite
.
20210202:2014
y

let’s be up to our

let’s be up to our
eyeballs in denial, free is
never quite free, once

you’ve strapped in for the ride, exchanged
parts of you that make up the whole
.
20170406:2103
y

i will learn to not

here is a thing i

here is a thing i
do or am finding myself
newly doing, an
adding-on to my
life experiences
because of you –
after certain
deaths, a scouring
through the cloud,
gathering of data,
zeroes and ones,
for evidence, any
sign of neglect
when i could have
singlehandedly, if
not so effortlessly,
plucked this
future pain from
our hearts, an
unbelievably self-
preserving, ego-
centric, and
indulgent thought,
as if i could
wrap it securely
around my heart
to forget you
.
20160620:0244
y

it’s no small thing

it’s no small thing –
observing that the
heart must
break. the pieces
have already
been carefully
measured,
weighed,
sometimes
parceled out over
time
– i lie
in the dark,
turning, twisting,
and rotating this
recent piece
in both hands –
it’s no small thing
.
20140929:0029
y

doubt is a nurtured

the body maintains

the body maintains
sorrow by running
batch commands
in mind-numbing
sequence, operations
that are memory-
hungry so that there is
no room to
err, to validate new
data, to awaken
from automation
.
20140323:1712
y

in the sorry aisle

in the sorry aisle
of home depot,
there is a broad
selection
of advanced
apologetic power
tools, self-
condemnatory
drill bits to go
with, and drawers
of compunctious
nails. every
master mechanic’s
tool set comes
repentant, and all
featured products,
down to the last nut
and bolt, is especially
made for home
improvement,
batteries not included
.
20130915:1356
y

occasionally,

occasionally,
your absence
tries on the robe
of revelry.
everyone knows.
it is a charming
ploy –
invisibility
trying to make
himself invisible
.
20130411:0841
y

eventually,